Can i knw when i can appear for naam daan and how to apply for that ....i live in Chandigarh......my mother is already a satsangi at dera since last 25 years....

Sir/Mam, I am not going to Radha Soami Satsang Beas. But I have deep belief on them. They have done uncountable noble causes for society. I have a problem please help me. One guy was continuously proposing me for marriage(he and his family has taken name from Radha Soami Satsang Beas). So I am a human being. So I did mistake. I accepted. We have a long term relationship. I am a educated girl. Now he is supposed to ditch me & I am mentally disturbed. I can't say these things to my parents. I am staying out of station. Every-time I want to do suicide. His parents knows about us & dislike me. His father threatened me on phone. Its my humble request please help me. I feel that the meaning of Radha Soami Satsang Beas is that don not do anything wrong with others like live and let live. I was also wanted to get alive. Otherwise I have only one way i.e to commit suicide. Please please please. I have hope on you.