Y should u b punished ?????
u r suffering already

Radha Soami ji,

I just joined today and your post was the first one I read. Sorry to hear about what you are going through but as babaji says all the time this whokle world is a stage and every one is playing his/her part and when their role is finished they move on. Well your situation is same, I know it is easy to say but hard to face it. 3 years ago i was in same situation as you r in now. But I survived, by the grace and mercy of babaji and here I am. Life is tough and can be spent in two ways, happily, facing the problems and by crying and running away from the problems. You are in stress and feeling lonely, but a day will come. not far away, that u will forget your past and will be living happily. Again I am not just saying I faced this before and I can feel what you are going through now. but dont worry, time will not reamin same forever. If today your are sad, happiness is not far away just be patient and have faith in Baba ji and offcourse yourself.

I hope this will help. Have a great time. and try not to be sad and do not cry.

Gurl u shud jus moove on u no cuz he iz soooooo wrung 4 u~!~~~~!!! u duserv bettah!!!! go ut n meeat sum, oder nise boi!!!1one11!

Thanks for ur encouraging words....if u have gone thru dis i know u know my condition.....but hw to get rid of dat guilt feeling coz it doesnt leave u ......i'm trying hard...i never expected dat i will do such a thing as hurting someone.....babaji always says its the greatest sin...

HI hope u r coping up and as far as guilt is cconcerned, BABAJI said if have done sumthing unintentionally its not a sin..and if u think its a sin well i think u r repenting for that nd self realisation of what u have done is biggest and greatest punishment for that. So dont think abt that again and again, try to think and do sumthing else, and as elders sayd TIME IS A BIGGEST HEALER AND IT WILL HEAL EVERYTHING
I will not say try to forget that, just try to divert your mind and u will be fine,. More u try to forget the harder it will be. So leave it with time and do ur daily work and dont sit free, i mean try to do something all the tym, may b try reading buks and watch TV.

Hope this will help.

radhasoami...ur words are just a balm to my bruised heart.....dont know hw to thank u....feeling as if im talking to god....i'm trying to b busy as much as i can....thnx again