I am in a dilemma, please help! I'm 35 year old according to my account at a site. I have been very much inspired by a widow 45 yr old, and her daughter 25 yr old equally. I don't know whom should I marry to get more SAWAAB?

I have asked this question to me TWICE, while looking at a snow flake, but the answer was invisible.......and i'm in such a hurry to find some legal solutions to settle me down at the western front. The eastern front is all feminized traditionally and I don't want to be influenced by them any more, as I am grown up now!