Hello, I am a 45 year old woman. I have some health issues from originally getting kicked in the small of my back 9 yrs. ago. I now have chronic pain, and have trouble walking from several back surgeries. My children are all adults and raised. Aprox.5 months ago I left my husband of 25years. I had been ok till just recently, I asked him if I could come back. His reply was that he would start drinking again if I came back home. This man was verbally, emotionally, and at times physically abusive! Why do I feel so depressed and confused? I feel like i was the bad guy for leaving. I left everything except for my clothes. I have zero self esteem ans feel I will never have a man want to date me and find me attractive again! can someone help me and let me know if I am going crazy! thank you... angelicmelody66