Baba ji !! radha swami ji ,,,,,,,,,,

baba ji mainu naam daan lite hoye 3 saal ho gaye han ,pehla tah uss satguru de aasre simran ,bhajan ,sewa hundi rehandi si
but main 21 se pt 2010 toh baad vich dere toh kaafi door ho gaya ha na hi satsang te jaana ,na hi simran bhajan kar paunda ha.pehla main har time simran , naam ya guru ghar diya hi gaalan karda hunda si per jadoh toh main 21 september nu nokri join kiti uss toh baad vich simran nahi kar sakeaa.mainu iss gal di kayi vaar tension ho jaandi hai ki main kidhar ja riha ha mainu samaj nahi aaundi,
kayi vaar main sochda ha ki malik di mouj hai jaddo oh chavega ouddo hi hovega simran ,bhajan, aur sewa
please mainu dasso ki main ki kara tah jo main duniya de kama-kaara naal naam vi jap saka ,
thanks
radha soami ji